Rock N’ Roll Revolution

I just realized i haven't updated in a while. Mybe because lj sucks but I see they updated the site. I feel just a little bit more lost now.

too much too much

So these past couple weeks have been very hectic for me on my account of me expoulsion from wilson, i hated that fucking school anyway, I've been studying for the tcc test and i'm taking it next friday, I really hope I will pass and get in all should wish me luck, im missing my freinds I havent seen anyone in a while iv'e been hiding out in my room trying to keep busy and keep my mind of smoking, I have random UA's for the next three months and have to stay clean and sober till then. I've been doing alot of reading, Ive been reading this great book on the gambling, drug, prostetoution ,illegal rings ect. In seatle and about the cuorrupt police payoffs and the crooked legal system, its all pretty fucked up but it gives me a nice veiw of our world in proggres to unprogress. or whatever i dont know, IM GOING CRAZY! Some one needs to come see me..

I have a job! yay! I dont work at chucke cheese fuck that place. I started working at Tobey Jones, its easy. The old people are better than the little kids. I have to work for the rest of the week. and on the superbowl! but we pretty much get to watch it at work.

So I haven’t updated in a while but this is the new semester and I know have Applied communications for my English class, which is the easiest class and we just sit around and do nothing on the internet, that’s how a lot of my classes are this semester I have
Plant Biology
Weight Lifting
Business math
History
Art
It’s 4th period into my new schedule and I’m already going to skip my first day in the new semester, ive noticed a lot of skipping today must classes are just syllabuses, BORING! Anyway I can now update, Yeah! By the way, I’m going to start working at chucky cheese, I hate little kids! And today I have volunteering at the pound, yes! Smelly dogs and cat poop, that’s my life

School, school, school, so boring and empty. I can't wait for t.c.c. Then I wont have to deal with so many enoying ass bitches. turkey day is in T-4 days... I think.yumm food i havent had a real thanksigiving in a while last year i think it was vegeitarian.. times change.. I was thinking about going back to my veige ways but i love food to much. Damn you mike and josh for your bad eating influences!!!

Extended forecast predicts rain forever, this comes as a pleasure to me but sadly I wish i could be looking foward to the sun soon. I have to get a job I need to start trying harder but no one wants me. School dosent seem as poetic today its just another rainy monday.

get drunk

Fuck I hate School!

im not shure why im posting this...

Fuck that

hmmmm.... I havent done this in a while. whats new.... welll entrys usually start on how you recently got fucked up well.. yesterday me and josh got drunk and painted. and as far as geting fucked up i cant really rember the last time its been like 4 days b4 that.. neways june went by slow and fast in a way I still have 2 months of summer left. Zac gets back today.....fuck lj.

I thought it was time for an upday... well it's saturday morning and im waiting for zac to get done with his god damn S.A.T's.. stuid test... anyways then we can go to seatle with the left over beer wine and weed. last night was ok we went to this chicks house and sat in her living room and drank beer then we went to titlow hot boxed zacs car and wanderd around the trails aimsly. And i swear to god that guy was an alien!

theres only 2 hours left till this memorial day weekends over and i still plan on using them wisley. it took awhile to remember this wekend but I finally did. Thursday....um... thursday...oh yeah! Mike Josh Zac and me got 2 bottles of wine and yoda and went to American Lake to swim at night. "Sorry steven I didnt cancel the smokin plans", anyways friday me and zac went camping on ocean shores and stayed up all night drinking more wine and smokin out of yoda again. saturday we got to drive back to tacoma and we dined and ditched at dennys it was awsome, but we got home to drop of our stuff and go smoke at owens beach, then we saw dan working there so we waited till he got off work then went to his freinds apartement smoked a few bowls and he was drunk and gave me a some whisky. Sunday we went to owens beach again smoked and drank caronas on the beach then we went to Jefferson park and smoked again then to my house and watched meet the fockers and ate a whole bunch of pizza. as for today it was more mellow, i woke up went to breakfest then zac came over and died my hair.... so i think that was all for this weekend.... i might be missing a few pices but it was so hard to remeber all of that.

Camping this weekend, trying to throw everything together. Why do i always end up making all the plans and seting shit up! I vote someone else dose this shit! Everythings booked out. oh well if we dont get a camp site. we'll camp in a damn park. we need more beer...

so saturday was a blur but i'll try to rember... first i met gary and sold some to this one bitch then i smoked it with her. then we hung out in garys house and discoused art. intill we got wind of a party involving some people that i wasnt very cool with before. but once we got there they pulled out the kegs and apoligized. so we drank and i got hit on by the one person i vowed to hate. but i dont really have much of a reason to hate him anymore. but i still turned him down. overall saturday turned out good. To much shit is being talked on livejournal right now. if bitches are reallly this pissed i say you setle it in fists because all this drama is fuckin pissin me of and if i have to fuck a bitch up to prove my point so let it be. It's fucked that people asume shit just because im freinds with certain people dosent mean i think like them. all this fucking drama is bullshit! everybody should just drop all there doughts and grudges and get the fuck over them. we all werent meant to turn on each other in the end, but it happend and that sucks but everyone needs to get over it. Just stop with the talking shit and get the fuck over it. it only brings down your life more to dwell on things trust me i just went through the same drama shit and the best thing to do is stop caring. so for all of you that hold grudges your only hurting your self in the end.

So within the last 2 month the most sober i could stay is 4 days. I think that might be a bad thing but fuck it. I think im at a pretty high point im my life "in more ways than one." Looking ahead things just look like there getting better. For some reason I have high hopes. This song reminds me of the best night of my life...well almost the best night.


Breathe in for luck,
breathe in so deep,
this air is blessed,
you share with me.
This night is wild,
so calm and dull,
these hearts they race,
from self control.
Your legs are smooth,
as they graze mine,
we're doing fine,
we're doing nothing at all.

My hopes are so high,
that your kiss might kill me.
So won't you kill me,
so I die happy.
My heart is yours to fill or burst,
to break or bury,
or wear as jewelery,
which ever you prefer.

The words are hushed lets not get busted;
just lay entwined here, undiscovered.
Safe in here, from all the stupid questions.
"hey did you get some?"
Man, that is so dumb.
Stay quiet, stay near, stay close they can't hear...
so we can get some.

My hopes are so high that your kiss might kill me.
So won't you kill me, so I die happy.
My heart is yours to fill or burst,
to break or bury, or wear as jewelery,
which ever you prefer.

Hands down this is the best day I can ever remember,
I'll always remember the sound of the stereo,
the dim of the soft lights,
the scent of your hair that you twirled in your fingers
and the time on the clock when we realized it's so late
and this walk that we shared together.
The streets were wet
and the gate was locked so I jumped it,
and I let you in.
And you stood at your door with your hands on my waist
and you kissed me like you meant it.
And I knew that you meant it,
that you meant it,
that you meant it,
and I knew,
that you meant it,
that you meant it.

so alot of things have been hapening... kinda. It turns out i dont have to take a drug test for a month. so Josh you cant be straight edge yet. Things have been happeing way to fast but its in a good way that i like. Im getting pretty hyped for summer. it looks like there are some good plans. Daphne lovs derby is playing in seatle june 30th, rumur has it Taking Back sunday is turing around again... warped tour should be cool.. hopefully this summer will be good as the last, i doubt it since the people i shared it with last summer are now gone.

so saturday was my last day of smoking it was pretty good. on the count that i smoke a whole hell of a lot. I should have went to the party but the movies sounded cooler at the time. This weeks been pretty busy and it seems like may will be some what quiet. this is my first day of not smoking and it sucks! I'm going to have to replace it with packs of cigarettes and pints of vodka. all good in the end. fuckin U.A's. any way today seems alright i think me and josh are going downtown mikes givin me a pack of ciggys and i get to see zach. everyone has flowers today... i dont know why...i want some...

Yeah! I have internet in my room now! even though im writeing from school... what am I going to do in this class for an hour! write an entry of course. anyways yesterday was cool indeed sticky notes in downtown Tacoma. Today I plan on getting popcorn. and tommorow is seatle with mike... I gotta call him... i dont have plans for sunday but i'll find them. this week was pretty crazy. Today was the only day I took the WASL sober. It sucked! I swear i do better on the wasl when high. I smoked to much this week and my throught tells me so. It hurts bad, damn cigarettes. cigars and weed... no... I cant damn them there my buddys.